A young boy

2009-07-31T20:48:00.000+08:00

i'm so bored.
also nothing much to update.
jus patiently waiting for things..
been staring into blank spaces for hours and hours
but more to come.. haha
so many things i wanna do, but havent..
so many places i havent been to..
haha..
jus continue to stare into blank spaces
n hopefully what i wish for will come true. =)

2009-06-16T00:08:00.002+08:00

blogging is not easy..
thinking of something to write..
n choosing what to write n nt to write is one big qns..
been so long ever since the last post..

alvl result aint that great..
but surpisingly i feel quite good abt it..
from btm.. slowly climbing up..
the mugging at airport works.. (does it? )

aft alvl.. days are like quiet..
staying at home > going out
i dunno y.. i dun quite like staying at home for so many days straight..
haha..
then the prom was okay.. a bit disappointment sadly to say
after that was just waiting for enlistment..
boring life indeed haha..

hmm apply to uni, then nt accepted..
appealed and now is waiting for the result to be out..
hopefully is good news.. haha..
jus cross-finger and wait..

nw is like a break from studying..
dunno a good thing or bad thing.
i miss the olden days back in sec sch..
haha.. now jus look forward..

guess that quite a bit of update.. =)

2008-09-01T01:05:00.004+08:00

hmm guess i will fail gp agn..

=X

ponder my essay over few days..

thinking if i write out of point..

till i realli wrote out of point..

prelim 2 sooooo near..

no confidence at all..

2008-08-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

teacher day celebration was unexpectly good and successful..
haha realli pay off for the long wait in the hall..
i was afraid it will be like the CNY n the national day celebration
a bit of the anticlimax.. haha..
great work done =)
haha a bit irony.. teacher day celebration is much like youth day celebration..
where teacher perform..
lol.. at least everyone enjoyed..
haha.. nicely done..

after celebration rush back to sec school..
so many teacher left or posted to other school..
only met 4.. but only had the chance to tok to 3..
haha..
yeay 14classmate went back..
lol stayed in class n tok
wah my sec sch building the indoor sports stadium..
hmm no chance to use it.. =X
then went to eat lunch
the nice fish slice bee hoon stall gone..
change le..
then order this dish from the new stall..
the taste is like different extend..
i like the old one sia..
hah..
then went to playground and play..
lol... grown up kids playing in playground..
fun lahz..
then end up taking long long long time deciding where to go nxt..
then some left to play pool, some left to meet other, some sit down and tok.
haha.. catching up with the old times..
actually one more coming.. but halfway dun wanna come le..
then all go home..
home swt home..

yeay im 18 le..
thx to those who rmb.. =)
haha i m very touched by one who wished me the nxt day..
kinda unexpected..

2008-08-29T22:32:00.002+08:00

some question to ponder about

how to use "because" 3 times in a row to form a sentence?

how to use "that" 4 times in a row to form a sentence ?

ans:
1) sentences cannot begin with the word because because because is a connective word.
2) That that that that boy use should be these.
haha =)

if dun understand, try reading a few times
(this joke not by me)

2008-08-16T23:40:00.002+08:00

Just a joke heard years ago.. cant rmb all.. so share a part..

this took place in a mental hospital

there was this person( ALPHA) sitting in the waiting room waiting for his friend who is a patient in IMH
then there was a person(BETA) beside him...
suddenly BETA start making funny noise
going vhroom vhroom vhroom!! then his action is like he is on the motorcycle two hand holding the grip

ALPHA: what r u doing?

BETA : i driving home cant u c?

ALPHA : u sure?

BETA : ya.. positivea continue his action agn...

ALPHA staring blankly n speechlessx

finally said politely : stop imagining

BETA stop instantly...

ALPHA thinking he got some moment of peace at last...

jus then the sound start agn

ALPHA demanded a stop in his action and said Red Light

BETA follow obediently and stop the sound

APLHA decided to do a test, he said start Green Light

BETA twist his hand and make the sound of engine start

ALPHA wait for a moment and said Red Light

BETA stop and make the sound of motocycle stopping

ALPHA feel that it is funny

and said Green Light...

BETA started engine agn

ALPHA was getting cheeky and said GREEN LIGHT , RED LIGHT , GREEN LIGHT, RED LIGHT repeatedly

BETA followed his order

ALPHA was there laughing at it

then BETA suddenly stop

no matter how ALPHA said its green light BETA still produce no sound

ALPHA ask why

BETA replied that he had reached home

ALPHA let out a sigh..

then ALPHA ask BETA r u a patient here?

BETA : i am here visiting my friend what is it that u keep saying GreenLight and RedLight and making those weird sound?

ALPHA found himself dumbfounded...and realise that his friend was beside him who was wearing home clothes apart from the ppl around...

Another Qns
How did sushi A greet Sushi B?

ANS : wasibi ( Wat's up B )

2008-08-10T02:18:00.003+08:00

心から生じるものは偽善です
にせであることは熱意から生じません
何が本当ですか
全部がにせです

2008-08-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

the opening cermony of the olympic is sooooooooooooooooo nice..

haha.. the lighting of the torch

so one of its kind.

its like 2 celebrations in a row,

ytd opening of olympic, todae national day..

the fireworks so nice..

its a long weekend, finding myself in a pile of papers..

ought to go n rearrange it agn..

just after 1 mnth, the pile of paper stack so high..

foolscape, correction tape and pen finish so fast..

notes stacking up high..

haha..

this is what i got from last yr to june.. tall rite..

went to check up for the HD5 channel,

its prg 38 , 610mhz..

but need extra component to view..

zzz

HD DVB-T MPEG-4 AVC Set-Top Box

having a HDTV ready is not enough =(

2008-08-01T23:04:00.002+08:00

jus wanna let free my emotions but i am not allowed to
as i promised in my blog..
no choice jus bottled it up..
n hopefully the acid produce will be able to burn it up..
emotions r not meant to be shared..

mayb i not meant for this world..
even my birth is a miracle after i hear mum say..
am i blessed?
thats y i got so many challengers in life..
jus had a veri negative thought.
then jus rmbed my birth
i should treasure my miracle life..

i feel that i realli realli realli realli realli wan to go to that school..
at least i am able to do things that i like..
n doing those realli cheer me up..
rmbing sec school..
everytime is a new experience gained..

for once the afternoon was so great..

2008-08-01T22:50:00.002+08:00

if the blog post cause displeasure..
im sorry..

i dun wan to say anithing..
or comment anithing abt this
later bring more problems..

2008-07-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

我很怕。。
今年真的不是个吉祥年
为什么有那么多的问题？？

为了钱，人什么都做的出？
有些事不方便说。。
只求事可以早日解决
但我看出一旦人失去了利用价值
就等于一个废人
不论他以前对你多好

在学校若我有说了不该说的话
可别见怪。。
现在能少掉一个烦人的事也是好
我在学校已避开了一些
还是好好的上课

成绩我来找你了
我不想以后为钱而烦

在巴刹听到
（有钱人就是有钱人，可以走来走去
没钱人，埋头苦干还是没钱人）

sigh
if i do not hav the results
when i grow older
i got a huge responsibility to carry..

for now dun think so much..
jus be happy
everything depend on the mood
when happy = learn good study good
if vex over things = u cant learn anithing at all..
take a deep breath..
n life move on..
whether u like it o not.

2008-07-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

做为一人
人的看法终依不同
最重要的是包容
主意身旁的人
要为他人着想
是一种美德
每次不要只为自己
天天以自我为中心
开始接受别人的看法吧
心胸放开

生闷气
活在苦里不好受
简直自讨苦吃
单以逃避
就能解决问题
是妄想
美好的明天等着

多了烦恼
少了笑容
也不似滋味
会不会解决
碰运气
钉到心里伤处
但是生活一样过
不去睬
要放松
放开视线，重新找会自我
弃掉所有烦恼
往着自己的目标
前进，
冲。。

其实这几天心里很不好受
一直再想为什么我和别人的待预不同
到学校受到的是冷漠，乎略
在课上是那么的无聊，闷
视乎一个接一个不理会
我又没得罪你们。。
也许我以不再是以前的好人
没有利用价值时丢在一榜
或许是错觉
我觉得好孤单
好恨上学
面对不顾他人感受的人
坐在一边无人理会
一个隐形的我。。

反倒是一些没和我近的人
会查觉出我的存在。。
我猜若我没出口，
我真的是隐形人。。

2008-07-09T15:53:00.003+08:00

sometimes setting target is sooo wrong..
u set it high.. to improve urself..
when u cannot reach, u fall
u set it too low.. n u cant even reach
u jus fall even more..

sometimes it jus like the social class system..
the poor will get poorer
the rich will get richer..
the weak will get weaker
the strong will get stronger..

2008-07-06T00:46:00.002+08:00

after one month of not excercising its like feeling a bit sick?
haha.. ytd went to play Bball after school..
after sweating feel much better.. =X
papers got back quite a few..
didnt do to my expectation..

my expectation is very low le..
i will be bar-ed from computer soon..
only to be used on fri n sat..
ahhhhhhhh.. my new friend will be radio..

todae went for CIP
its like.. erm jus a walk?
this is held by the north west cdc..
then its abt going green.. save the earth
our cip was suppose to follow the elderly to walk.
there are too many of us..
end up is like walking with ourselves =X
we walked from admiralty to woodlands..
just a short walk..

after the walk, it ended at CWP
then went to eat dinner
after that watch movie..
hancock.. actually was still okay..
yea NEBO good..
movie ticket from $10.50 to $8
watched finish...
then meet up with others, they went starbucks.
meet up..
they continue with the mind games..

i am like completely lost lahz

what fuzzy fuzzy like?
around the world in 80days
leave fall fall fall.. which side did it fall
morning night morninng morning night night morning
8 oclock 6 oclock 2 oclock ... what time is it..

i m there like :S

2008-07-03T23:20:00.003+08:00

it feels so bored.. haha..
studying mood gone after studying..
=X
ytd went out eat dinner..
hmm sumptuous..
crabs n stingray..
haha..

todae got back result..
chem paper 2
phy paper 1
gp paper 1 n 2
hmm.. didnt do well..

2008-07-01T16:24:00.003+08:00

chem paper was sigh..
cant finish..
n i chose wrong qns.. after spending 10min decide on which qns to do
=X
then i did qns 1.. do finish.. look at time.. 50min gone..
its an easy but long qns..
make me cant finish the whole paper..
n qns 4 was like ( Y did i even choose this qns over qns 3..)
end up cannot do + no time to think..
guess i'll get scolding =(
hmm mus do more n more papers to train speed in thinking..
haha..

tmr last paper.. after that thurs lesson start le.. fast =X

2008-07-01T08:52:00.002+08:00

2 more paper to go..
hope can pass all
at least math pls..
since whole holiday i focused most on math..
i dun wanna fail it... =X

2008-06-26T15:11:00.002+08:00

exams...
left 3 more paper..
paper was relatively easier as compared to block test
BUT!
i still cannot do...
sad case senerio..
guess that i will be called back to stay back
everyday after school..
paper 3 gonna be tough i suppose..
tmr math paper2..
STATISTIC
=X

o ya..
this is what i came up with when real bored with study..
why exam is a waste of time
TO students:
1) time used to study
2) time in doing exam
3) time 4 waiting 4 results
TO teachers:
1)time used to set exam papers
2)time to make exam papers
3)time to scold those those students with lousy result ( like me )
4)time to goive extra remedial to them
n TO me:
to come up with this thing..

haha.
aniway exam is more waste time to teachers than to students =X

hmm.. slpt at 2.30am to K CHEM
however chem K-ed me todae..
*knocked-out*

2008-06-21T21:19:00.002+08:00

hmm.. y cant i have the ability to read 1200 in 1sec
like those speed readers..
lol!!
even 1 pg per sec i also happy
then 1hr can finish the studying..
then 3hr can study finish 3 times lehz
so gd..
haha..
read fast.. memorise fast..
holiday ended le..
so fast..
haha timetable changed!!
only change a PE lesson off..
later sure got extra lessons..

itchy itchy.. so many mosquito bites todae =X

2008-06-20T23:10:00.003+08:00

chiong study at full force
left 4days
will neglect econs agn i guess..
do so much tutorial for math..
i dun wanna fail math!!
=X
jyjy to myself.

2008-06-19T00:02:00.002+08:00

todae game was like so worse than monday
when monday was bad enough.
wasted..
2nd game was like only 1 strike n 1 spare..
9th frame.. left pin 2 , 5
then hit one pin.. zzz
3rd game no strike at least better
but wasted so many 9pins..
cant pick up the spares..
eg.. 3 times or 2 times
pin 4 there..
ball hook till pin 7...
miss pin 4..
so sayang..
=X
game 1.. aft spare suffer a 0..
wah.. last frame summore..
gonna kick myself for these errors..

if only studies i pay so much attentions =P
haha..

2008-06-17T23:57:00.002+08:00

went to celebrate mum bdae at yishun safra
go there makan..
haha my dad keep craving for the food there,
wanted to go last week de
lol basically the food nt nice =(
last time was like so nice lahz.. n cheap..
now standard so different.
we go there at 5.30, till we eat finish 6.40
guess what..
we are the only one there..
=X
so quiet..
hmm last time the crab there was like so nice..
now the crab is like so soft? till all in the chilli le
the prawn was like fried with too much oil,
prawn shell stick with the meat..
but one thing nice, the chicken..
=)
haha eat finish, nxt time makan list this place is out

2008-06-14T13:23:00.003+08:00

*edit*
everyone watched the movie i wanted to
*end of edit*
realli i think
i dun tok to ppl
ppl dun tok to me
=X
i m jus a small character
mayb an invisible one..
i dunno know..
its jus my thinking..

sometimes i jus keep things to myself
dun wanna spoil ppl mood, ending up spoil my own
i m jus weird =X
sometimes i jus wanna break free..
this holiday the furthest i went away from home is SAFRA yishun..
wah.. so far eh.. jus a 30min walk
apart from chandru house party or family lunch..
thats the furthest i went..
sad case..
so many things i say i wanna accomplish in holiday,
sadly none..
if dec holiday is this bored ah..
i realli dunno what to say le..

everyone is so stressed up with studying
except me..
somemore left 1 week
i like no feeling?
mayb thats the highest level of stressed up
stress up with so many things
my life is like SCREWED up?
pardon for using vulgar language.. ( i dunno how to describe it other than this word )
mayb its just my thinking..
just 5more mnths + 12days
jus whacked it thru bahz..
(dunno how much white hair has to be added)

its nt fair too... we pay soooo much for exam fee(airfare)..
n we cant enjoy the luxurious of sitting in the airplane going oversea..
ITS the exam script that fly there..
='(
then summore its one way trip..
sad sia..
come back its a cert, a cert that allow u to go to Uni or Not..
a cert that cost ard $1 + your future
aft result release, those who wanna check their paper, pay the money got it back
the rest is being sent thru paper cutter..
who knows? the tissue, foolscape paper, we are using are made from these paper..
haha

2008-06-13T21:36:00.002+08:00

wah i am old sia..
got one 3yr old kid need call me 表叔
haha...

if i was still 3yr old so gd sia..
dunid think of study..
jus need to noe..
play eat slp tv
eat slp tv play
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z
=X

2008-06-12T23:21:00.003+08:00

wow ever since i got my first walkman
i start buying songs album
till now its like my whole drawer full..
haha
like got 48 disc..
count 40, some is burnt from computer
some is got double disc..
lazy count those eng album which i had it still in the case..
haha spent around $800 n even more..
realli spent a lot sia.. over the years of 6

mon still need go sch for chem lect n econs tutorial..
need to do these work haha..
chem got like 25topic test for prelim1
phy got like 22topic
math got 22 too
econs? hmm take a step at a time bahz..
rush also no use.. the lecture like absorb nth..
need change sponge le..
left 1 week of "holiday"
=X
this holiday unexpectedly quiet..

2008-06-12T13:59:00.002+08:00

i m so dead for the gp prelim1 essay
i have no idea what come into my mind sia
y did i write that for reason for mad cow disease..
i mus be crazy..
joke of the year - to be soon
ahhhhh!!!
its realli a mix up of facts..
=X

AHHH!! bored bored bored

its weird to see everyone studying except me =(
guess its all in the mind..
i feel that i lack the amt of study..
prepare to fail =X
can i not fail ? T.T

2008-06-11T21:35:00.002+08:00

afternoon went out to eat at safra tampinies
sakura.. haha... thought my cousins will be there
k lahz.. only 1.
cox the other 2 got things on..
sianz-ed lo..
but eat till quite full..
then went gaint.. walk walk c c
haha its not that gigantic aniway.. =X
went for training later on..

i wan to study but no mood to..
sianed..

2008-06-10T17:56:00.003+08:00

sad after the checkup
sigh.

watched indiana jones..
nice show

2008-06-09T14:41:00.002+08:00

jus did a flash animation
feel that ultra no standard..
o well...
was rushing it.. for no reason also..
lol.
later got tuition..
still nid clear tuition work..
later still go bowling b4 tuition.. dunno got time o not..
rushing tuition work
tmr morning still nid wake up early .. zzZ

2008-06-09T00:44:00.003+08:00

jus typed a 407word long email..
cox its his birthday
wow hyper long sia..
sigh i broke my own promise
but o well.. its between me n myself

2008-06-08T01:33:00.003+08:00

jus out here to enjoy the night
along with the night breeze..
(there isnt much LOL)
accompanied by
rooster crow-ing!!!
owl hooting
wow in the middle of the night..
got all these sound.. haha..
summore so high pitch de ..
weird..
=X
guessed it stopped.
still got some but veri faint..

still rmb last time eng tuition
got one time.. teacher ask us to write things around u at home or anywhere
listen, smell , see , touch
haha.. write all the describtive words

2008-06-06T22:27:00.003+08:00

wah so bored..
haha.. todae went to return comics n borrow more
lol. actually wanted to read it long time ago when my cousin has it
so sad he actually throw the whole series away.. =X
y did he do that.. dun understand sia..
haha i walk to nrthpt n walk back home..
hmm been walking to safra / nrthpt so often..
(lack of exercise too )
wanna play badminton/ pool/ bowling (no doubt got play LOL)

haha jus now i ask my dad wan watch movie o not..
then so funnie.. he say can buy ticket for $2 only
guess what..
disguise as a young child. then make sure the ticket seller cannot c u..
only can hear sound LOL.
funny sia..

there is still so many place i hav not been..
i realli back in time le..
haha
1) T3
2) singapore flyer
3) E!hub
4) kallang entertainment centre

been doing math from 5pm till 7+ pm
then cont from 9+pm to 10+pm
still got sooooo many..
haha.. yet i still so slack here..

havent touch chem n phy.. LOL
prepare for failing.. sigh sigh
feel so bored at home..
rotting time away..
tick tick tick.. can hear that sound?
its time..
time is precious n yet cant hold.
only can c it run away..
one can nvr run faster than time.
its forever going..
only forward or fastforward..
no rewind or fastrewind
neither pause or stop
its just there ticking ticking
=X

too bored that y so crappy..
ytd midnight my mouse was dead..
make me unplug n replug so many times
end up using backup mouse
which is sooooo playful..
run here n there so fast that i cannot control well..
morning wake up.. my old mouse working agn..
wonder isnt it..
=)
hope its nt dead agn after it see what i type =P

2008-06-05T13:24:00.002+08:00

wow 160 post le
lol. holiday sure is rotting my time away..
realli need to study more.. so i guess 4pm - 7pm is intense mugging time
haha..
my intense will also not intense to any extent..
LOL..

so many movie that i wanna watch
1) kungfu panda
2) chronicles of narnia
3) indiana jones

lol..still got so many nice shows coming up..
this yr is realli movie yr?
haha..
i still havent go to the E!hub
ppl say its solely for leisure de..
=X n the bowling alley there very nice..

NS check up soon.. 10june.
lol i go booked the time 8am..
that realli realli early i realise..

2008-06-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

taking econs is quite the wrong choice
sigh. so much things to learn
first learn concept
nxt to apply
third to find evidence
then evalute
then link..
haha..
started on the textbook..
read a few pages
then some is nt in syabullas
some is H2
actually h1 is nt required to buy..
then dunno y last yr asked us to buy..
then its like dunno worth it o not..

desserts n stressed are somewhat linked tgt
haha..
desserts are meant to be sweet
but opposite of sweet is bitter
stressed is bitter
haha

2008-06-02T22:34:00.001+08:00

bored bored bored
dun feel like doing anithing.. haha

2008-06-02T22:21:00.003+08:00

went for chandru house party today
haha.. the food was nice
especially the curry..
delicious.. haha..
=)
watched two movies there
both movie veri funni.. haha
one is Yours, mine and ours
and the other is
i pronouce u chuck and larry
haha..
later on play polar bear..
enjoyed myself todae
thx chandru..

been doing complex numbers for the past few days..
lol.. math n math n more math every day..
haha.. hope can pass math this time round..

2008-05-30T23:09:00.003+08:00

went to pile up all my notes n book
for jc de..
then guess what.. its like 69cm!!
counting like 1 piece of paper like 5cent
1 piece of paper is like 0.2mm
wow.. spent like $172 on paper
of cox not accurate.. so many inaccuracy involved..
haha..
but thats a lot..
some got binding.. some is book..
book more expensive..
nvm..
aniway.. was re-arranging all my papers into subjects agn..
n topics
further divide into tutorial , lecture notes , assignment n revision qns..
only did 1 subj.. phy.
n i took like 1 hr..
imagine doing it for econs which is the tallest of the pile..
haha.. guess i nt doing for econs..
jus going o do for math chem n phy haha..

2008-05-29T23:05:00.003+08:00

blank post =)
didnt i say its blank..
o well.. since u see managed to read it..
then guess its alright..
however i already said its blank post
so no point reading it..
haha wasted 10sec of ur time -_-

its thursday n i havent realli started revising..
what a slow progress i have made.
MUST realli start STUDYING le..
meanwhile finish up tuition work first.. haha..

what a lame post this is.. wasted 5min of my time also..haha..

2008-05-28T21:00:00.003+08:00

upgrading of lifts are proceeding in my housing area..
ahhh so noisy...
haha.. got the buzzing of machine sound
predict it will only get worst as the holiday proceed on..
lol..
too noisy le.. so went play bowling instead.
=X
sian-ed.
holiday is like passing so fast??
zoom 3days gone le.. all these days need go back sch.
tmr also..
haha.. math statistic test summore..
more like sadistic test..
lol. even math has become a memory chapter..

2008-05-26T21:06:00.003+08:00

taking 2 langauge in a day is realli no joke..
so much hardship.. haha.. hav to sustain for a long period of 6hrs!!
chi was like hard?
coming out with so many words seen so foreign to me eh.
gp was realli i dunno what the AQ toking abt..
i completely went blank for AQ
left with 20min..
i was like stun.. think i wrote lots of craps
only realise after the exam..
taking a stand. i take both stand.. haha
duno what am i thinking..
hmm tmr whole day phy..
wed is econs
thurs is math..
wahaha.. holiday not like holiday. lol.
stressed up..
i havent done phy paper 2 n 3 for tmr lecture
n the xtra lesson after the phy paper..
wah.. doubt i can do much..
prepared to get scolding.. =X
so much for studying chi when the paper is so hard.
haha..
o well afterall its over!

2008-05-23T23:12:00.003+08:00

weather was sooooooo hot.. even at night
sian lo. always at 31.5degree..
ahhhhh... getting sick soon..
todae had the college day
tot it would be boring
but not so..
unexpectly it was still ok..
much better than the CNY celebration x10
haha..
4.15pm assemble
4.30 go up hall
5pm start
VIP nt here
got 3 performance..
then followed by video ( hmm a lot to write for gp eh? )
then wait for a while.. VIP come
listen to principal speech
the school got new things agn..
but everything is to the NMA =X
then VIP speech..
it was like WOW..
saw a girl in mid j1
last day of j2 then know her
then tgt 10yrs
then wife n husband
then good job.. change to politics
have the YOG
cool..
then was ppl getting prizes..
then was a speech , photo video, college song..
then opening ceromony of the new thing(dunno how to type)
but only to teachers n guest n guest of honour.. haha...
hopefully will get our chance in term 3
hmm term2 ended
YEAY!! ITS holiday..
but nt a good one..
it will be known as a mugging "camp"
haha..
*find ppl to mug in library / changi airport*

nxt mon retaking chi..
wah.. 6mnth nvr practice le..
(at least still got read chi words)
haha.. writing eh.. veri rarely..
hope dun feel weird on mon..
nid to chiong chi for todae, tmr n sunday..
for recap on the topics n exam format.
kinda forget le.. haha..
so slack =X

target for prelim..
i dun wan much.
jus
all 3h2 min E
h1econs S
h1 gp C
that all..

results reali nt gd..
mus realli WORK HARD ,,
but like i always say
the biggest obstacle is the motivation..
hopefully can press on till nov.
dec is what i call life =)
no doubt it will get bored halfway thru.. ( too sianed .. nth to do. )
till then..
now concentrate on studies..
hopefully can make it to the University. =P
(ambitous ain't I)
this is the only choice out of no choice.. hehe.

2008-05-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

cant wait for holiday!!
a few more days + a one more week
then holiday le..
need to mug.. =)
at least better than long sch hour..
driving me crazy..
hmm..
shortcut is nt always the best route.
soon need to take a lvl mtl agn
haha..so long nvr practice le..

jyjy..

2008-05-19T21:37:00.000+08:00

got this uneasy feeling..
like 4get to do something.. =X

2008-05-15T21:24:00.002+08:00

mayb i will learn from Khalil..
keep quiet..
dun say anithing..
i dun tok to others others wont tok to me..
this is what i observe..
ok lo.. since u want that to be..
it is realli overboard of u to say such a thing..
i hav no idea what happen sia..
got once.. u say me say the teacher lesson boring..
when i nvr even say that..
also dunno y u angry.. suddenly say me
say me what nvr pay attention get such result..
blame teacher..
since when i blame her..
i am like diaox..
end up i duno y i apologise to u.. when u first say me
ok lo.. i dun mind..
but now.. over such a thing.. say i nt dependable..
its like diao..
fine since i nt dependable..
i will learn from others.. sway away from responsibility..
seriously lahz.. i m disappointed..
tot u know me well..
n say i nt dependable..
there is no way i will apologise this time
felt so hurt..
sometimes small words matter..

(as quiet as a mouse now)
as vulnerable as a paper
as weak as a leaf
but i will remain my stand.. i c nth wrong.
when i told u the reason.
ending up u said the word that shldnt be said.

i know i might lose a friend..
but then the word u said hurt me more than losing a friend..
that all i can say..
if that u wanna be.

i may become an outcast.
i noe i will regret..
but aint friends to be trusted?

mayb i am jus invisible to all of u..
a guy who wanna act to stand up in front of your..
i noe.. ppl dislike me..
but one will nvr know the life of a loner?
i m used to it.. BUT I HATE IT!
ever since p2..
being bullied.. (the guy is even in my class now)
how ironic.. but i dun mind..
since he dont bully me now..
p3 p4 p5 p6..
all the way being bullied by ppl..
yea.. but thats the way of life..
sec1 n 2..
still quite ok..
sec 3 n 4..
ok..
but sec4. that backstab incident.. realli make me pissed.
i like my secondary school CCA ppl.. much better..

yea i like attention..
i like ppl to chat with..
i want to be with groups..
i dun wan to be alone..
COX i m sick n tire of it..
home also alone..
but who knows the feeling?

yeay ppl may think this post is out for pity..
i jus wanna voice out what i feel..
the word realli hurt me deep..
this is the first time ever ppl say this word to me..
even ppl who does nt know me well..
wont even say this..
fine.. if i am this type of person in ur view..
let it be..
leave a blackmark on me..
at least i know i got some attention..

thats all..
will tmr be a better day..
nah.. i dun believe it le..
walk one step count one step bahz..

i know after this post.. i may lose friends
but i still decided to post..
sigh.

2008-05-14T19:58:00.000+08:00

does anyone understand me??
=X

2008-05-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

hah jus eaten durian..
omg.. this time round de its sooooooo nice...!!
best ever eaten.. but so sad sooo full..
8.30pm then finish dinner..
10pm got durian to eat..
eat the first few nt that good..
when packing the rest.. its like..
so tempt to take one..
jus take one.. then that one was "heavenly"
haha..
nice nice..
so swt de
then too full to take one more..
take one more think can vomit..
im that full..
hmm think shld be worth it..
5+1durian $100
heard from my dad.. hehe..

sry to those who dun like .. i cant help it..
=P

2008-05-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

sch releases so late!!
its like.. kinda of sianed..
still like the 1st mnth of JC2
release early.. can do what u want..
now go home cant even study..
too tire to study. haha.
wah.. faster faster prelim over.. then condense timetable..
early end.. ( hope then no xtra lesson in the afternoon)
if nt realli sian 1/2
haha..
tmr 5.40pm then release..
sian lo..
haha.. todae xtra lecture.. its like..
totally brain dead? whats go in come out..
haha..
like the law of gravity.. what go up must come down..
lol.
hmm stressful sia..
need study n study..
haha mayb june holiday.. go library study..
(need find ppl)
lol. like o lvl..
(no doubt wont study much)
at least wont be affected by the lift construction..
guess it gonna be loud during the june holidays.
lol..
I still hav yet to go to the E!hub..
been saying it for so long.. still havent go.
haha.. ppl say there for little kids leisure de?
dunno lehz..
nxt time got chalet good..
got midnight movie, pool and bowling..
haha.. ppl say the lane there nt bad.. hmm
tempting sia..
lol. sian so late le.. havent finish organic chem revision worksheet..
so many to learn de lo.. the organic chapter..
sigh.. y mus the syllabus be so much..
haha.. y cannot like last time de..
y come out with H1 n H2
make me take constrasting subject..
hha.. dunno gd o bad.
last yr result dun look appealing..
now the pressure is high..
haha if last yr result good..
pressure high --> to get better result
since last yr result nt good..
pressure also high --> need to do better.. surpass..
its like.. a double edge sword..
either way also is pressure..
haha..
PV=NRT
pressure of studies X volume of the brain = number of moles of brain particle X 8.31 X the temperature rised by the teacher
volume of the brain is of a certain capacity..
as the temperature rised by teacher is high..
keeping the number of mole n vol constant.
it will result in a rise in the pressure of studies..
since vol is of a certain capacity..
when the pressure exceed the vol.. will result in a more than proportionate change in volume..
thus cannot hold n then boom explode..

LoL lame -_-
nt even according to the formula..
nvm.
pls hor.. this is nt the real meaning of the eqn hor..
hah dun blame me... i got give warning le..
lol.

lame.. cont with organic chem revision worksheet le..

2008-05-10T23:26:00.002+08:00

lalala.. went grandma hse..
hmm mother day celebration..
all my aunt there cooking..
LoL.. still normal..
tmr morning need wake up early..
tuition.. haha from 7pm change to 9.30am
cool rite..
hope can wake up. haha
still rmb got once preparation for competition
meet at 8am do de...
end up i slept till 11am
haha rush there alr 12noon.
hyper late lol.

2008-05-07T22:08:00.001+08:00

bored n lonely

2008-05-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

its been quite some time since i last blogged
haha blogging in the morning ...
early hor.. now 12.05am..
hmm was doing the GP project
Aztec.. haha.. know quite a handful of things le..
ahhh... scare later i fell asleep during lesson agn lo.
i wonder how ppl SLP SO LATE still can stay AWAKE in lessons
PRO!
teach me!! i wanna learn..
(seem kinda impossible)
yawn.. getting sleepy here..
later still got dunno what math test..
on approximation? to binom possion..
aiya.. blur blur de..
half pail of water go in agn..
hmm how to get a full pail of water?
its like i wanna revise for prelim 1 le..
but revise a bit..
then like stone there. haha..
need to catch up on work le..
working half as hard as i wanted to.
prelim 1 if all pass i happy le..
haha a lvl i only aim for H2 all B
H1 all A..
isit possible?
sigh. 2yrs in JC nia.
shortcut is always hardest to take
got poly shld hav chose it.. haha..
but no use.. jus cont on in JC..
haha dun wanna waste more time to backtrack..
soooo... need work hard..
help!! someone help me in studies..
think june holiday need find ppl accompany everyday go library study.
LoL..
at home n outside both no incentive to study.. so..
haha..
aiya. dunno what i crapping about.
sign off le..
going slp le.. o else tmr will c attack of the panda =)
haha..

2008-05-01T16:31:00.002+08:00

kinda of sianz with a lot things..
=X
just wanna be carefree sia..
haha.
its like people being left out..
let it be bahz..
nt going to care anymore..

2008-04-29T21:09:00.002+08:00

wooooh =)
well done bowling team..
girls top 8
guys top 11
haha.. nice nice..
hmm competition finally over le..
4days of competition..
good job done
lol.
i still remain at 105th
lol..
singles score was
144 , 125, 145 , 114 ,159 ,135
avg 137
doubles was
128, 128, 118, 117, 102, 162
avg 125.8
team was
172, 152, 151, 124, 154, 124
avg 146.2

lol. my score nt that gd..
hmm.. no more a div le..
j2 le
haha..
need to buck up on studies
lol.
jyjy bowling team '09

2008-04-25T23:57:00.003+08:00

hmm two matches of a div gone le..
singles n doubles..
didnt do that well
nt at my expectation at all...
so sad lo.
o well.. still left the team event..
mus realli chiong
singles still okay lahz..
but doubles its like so many things pop up..
the bus came sooooo late
till we almost late.. its like sianed 1/2 le
go there jus nice practice throw..
its like so.. rush
the worst lane 25 n 26..
its like dunno what.. so many things happen there
mayb its my thinking..
hmm 3 consective gutter..
its like OMG
haha.. so hard to chase to get over 100
but the last game was nice..
finally a luck payoff..
so many unlucky thing.. then a lucky thing..
actually did a non pocket strike..
its like so tyco.. lol..
hmm..
then tok bout todae training..
its like so no face lo.
my thumb expanded.. then want to release
cannot then it release so far..
hit the lane.. bounce to gutter..
gutter bounce to the seperation of two lane
then bounce to another lane de gutter
from there bounce to the lane..
aiya so sad almost strike -_-
actually its like so no face..
then the manager of the lane come..
wow.. coach me lor..
so gd =)
got an ex national bowler to coach.. 10min
haha..
end up is sth wrong where i place my finger.. lol..
now okay le..
hehe.. mus make a comeback on monday
hopefully =)

2008-04-22T19:32:00.003+08:00

hmm am i invisible?
hellooooo....
3...
2..
1.
no reply.. mayb i realli am..
i was walking beside, standing beside..
walking infront..
its like treating me as air..
yea mayb its rite 0712c consist of 8 ppl
mayb 9?
rest of us is like o712C'
its okay.
back to lonely days.
i m mr lonely..
mr lonely..
=X
i dun even hav to hide myself..
i m invisible

2008-04-12T16:28:00.002+08:00

ytd finally got back the long awaited pw results
aft that went to play basketball..
then went for the long jump heats..
still mus stay there n wait for the girls to jump finish first b4 the boys turn..
waited like 2hr
summore cannot leave from there to other place..
mus stay thru.. =X
finally till the boys turn..
hmm i manage to get to the top 8..
from 6th position become 7th position..
haha..
total 6 jump
first 3 to see whether to get to top 8
then 3 more jump agn..
haha.. i jump 4.42m in first jump then double fault.
get to top 8
which later jump 3 time agn..
1st time i scare i fault agn.. then use wrong leg..
2nd time same thing..
3rd time i fault agn..
zzz
6jump i fault 3time..
its like ..
i hav the most number of fault.
haha..
aft that.. straight.. without much rest go training..
come back eat dinner..
recieve a call..
family matter.. hav to rush down to my aunt place..
condition very critical..
now stabalize le..
then went home..
reach home was like 12.40am le..
then slp.. all the way till 11.20am..
wake up muscle pain as expected
=X

aniway for the pw results feel so relieved
thx to all the team member
firstly leader MC:
thx for being the leader.. without u, the later part of the project wont be so wonderful and the grade wont be achievable. Thx for being the leader. without u the team will be in a lost. It is tough on u to coordinate the whole team but it is a wonderful job u hav done.. Keep it up..

Azraa and evan :
thx for all the editing work for the WR n the OP scripts. Without all the editing work, the work will all be in a mess with many errors. Thx for staying up late doing all the editing work when ur shld be asleep. Thx for all the hard work. Jiayou for the rest of the a lvl subjs

Khalil:
thx for keeping the file in proper care =)
and some parts of the WR

PW no doubt is a tiring subj with many slpless night.
all the hard work had paid off..
thx..
now all work towards the rest of the a lvl subjects
=)

IJ025

2008-04-06T02:41:00.003+08:00

jus a random remark..
things nvr go ur way
when it does, u feel weird.
things go too ez..
when it dont u keep wanting it..
haha..

hmm results are as poor as usual..
sometimes teachers ought to give positive remark
n nt keep saying negative things..
if keep wanting us to withdraw,
give ppl a sense of insercurity..
why cant say something good.
its nt that ppl dun wan to improve..
constant negative remark.. make ppl more depress..
sigh.. =X

2008-04-01T22:36:00.002+08:00

april fool is not about tricking others
is abt how u enjoy the tricks
lol..
i enjoyed it so much.. tot it will be a boring day..
haha.. didnt know about the trick at night..
it was like.. not buying it..
end up i bought the trick..
haha.. silly-ness get over me..
o well.. i enjoyed it a lot..
truth =)
i veri easy to get fooled..
after 1 yr then realised
-_-
sad hor..
haha..

2008-03-29T20:55:00.002+08:00

haha.. ytd was sooooo tire..

today spent more than half of the day slping..

lol.

the run was so tiring.. so hard to overtake..

need to speed up and slow down so many time

haha.. dangerous overtaking..

drank a lot (water i mean )

but still dehydrated in the end..

sad. =(

lol.

2008-03-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

the day started off by..
phy.. i no idea y i doze off..
(when waiting for ppl to go write sumthing)
then was like lectured for tutorial not complete
nxt was chem lect..
i didnt even realise need to do the tutorial..
wahaha.. sadded..
then was math. math was still ok..
assembly.. relax relax..
econs.. =X
dunno what happen.. suddenly so angry..
a bit scared
then was gp
till middle.. being lecture agn..
what a day..
almost every lesson got lecture by teachers
scary..
4/5 lesson?
hmm realli scary..

lecture speed increase =
tutorial speed also need increase =
student doing speed need to increase =
time to slp become shorter =
fall alseep in class =
nvr listen to lesson =
going to sch n not going no difference =
poor result =
blame sch
=> sch increase timetable =
later time going back home =
go home tire =
no mood to study =
but mus study =
postive(study) X negative(no mood) = negative =
equal to not study at all.. =
poor result =
blame sch
=> come out with programme =
want us to study =
make us stay back to study =
ppl dun wan study =
affecting others not to study =
more sianz.. =
nvr study =
poor result =
blame sch
=> come out with stop u from going cca =
sianx.. =
need study study study..
(sidenote : i dun c y stopping ppl from going cca works
it can hv adverse effect..
if i stop rite.. i will use sat or sun n go which result in more time wasting..
sat n sun more time to study.. ) =
lousy sch result =
blame sch
=> come out with banding =
rank us to our ability =
band A more work.. =
they get clever
=> band C need work =
can get clever
=> band B =
nth?? =
stagnant.. =
same analogy of the rich get richer, the poor get poorer =
a polar result =
blame sch
=> what's nxt ?

haha.. after all is still down to ownself..
(back to chem tutorial.. )

2008-03-26T23:33:00.002+08:00

haha.
jus got back from home 40min ago..
tire day..
tmr a long day in sch agn..
(hope i do not slp during lesson agn)
haha..
results r as bad as b4
i wanna improve..
but the motivation barrier exist.
hmm..
i need math tuition.. haha..
no choice.. cox i dun practice math..
need ppl to teach.. haha.
left the last paper havent get back
*cross finger*
haha.. fri got road run!!
lol havent run alr feel tire at the thought of it.
shld work harder in everything..
I wan to be a jack of all trades and the master of all
=)
haha.. shld strive..
yawn. back to econs tutorial..
(realli shld hav done it ytd)
lol.
cya

2008-03-24T23:04:00.001+08:00

hope things will turn up well tmr..
=X

2008-03-24T22:23:00.003+08:00

a few things to state first..
if i get angry easily dun blame me..
or if i scold anyone..

(SORRY IN ADVANCE IF I EVER DO THAT )
=X
hopefully not..

2008-03-24T22:15:00.003+08:00

haiis..

i dunno why..

i keep worrying this n that..

sigh..

worry how ppl think of me..

worry about schoolwork..

worry bout result..

worry bout teacher taking off my cca

worry that i cause the others cannot play in competition..

worry this n that.. sigh

2008-03-22T02:14:00.002+08:00

Date : 22/03/08
Time : 2.14AM
Mood : BORED!!
Weather : night with a bit of wind
physical : still very awake..

haha.. glad that block test is finally over..
over..
lol. how to describe those papers
ez if got study..
hard if nvr study..
medium with a bit of study..
hmm.. actually also didnt study much
go home play game..
at night 2hr study..
=X
so little rites..
i also noe..
( this prove that i so slack )
slacking.. sianz.
b4 exam slack
during exam slack
after exam slack..
haha..
sitting the paper i was like..
time pls pass faster..
reali feel like scream out loud..
cox so sian lahz..
every qns like repetition..
chem..
every qns..
distinguish this chemical from this chemical
for phy was
every qns.. pls state the law of blah blah blah
what is the defination of blah blah blah.
c le.. also wan tear the paper..
haha.. i nt super brain with integrated memory card..
can store all the information into my head lol.
aniway no use dragging on it..
whats over is over.. sigh..
haha..
i wan go out!!
lol.. i so loner..
no one wan go out with me..
haha..
b o r e d
stayed at home play GBA game.. haha..
watch anime.. watch drama..
kill time..
( lol. )
k back to anime.. kateikyoushi hitman reborn =)

signing off at 2.20am
haha.. =)
stay happy..

2008-03-15T23:57:00.002+08:00

went to NUS open hse..
its like so big..
haha.. feel like an ant walking in..
(think will get lost without map)
=X
went for the talks..
hmm..
i still dunno what course i would like to take in U
then hav lunch at clementi..
food there nice lehz..
=)
haha..

2008-03-14T23:36:00.002+08:00

read thru my older post..
a lot of feelings..
wondering.. pondering..
y am i so dumb n stupid =X
so silly in the past..
got one interesting thing i wrote..
there is no reason to hate other people.. hate yourself
haha..
still got one post on 30 types ppl..
lol..

weird sia.. all those things i wrote..
haha..
so many memories come back..
sad sad sad.. rarely happy de
o well..
ppl tend to rmb the sad things in life rather than happy things

2008-03-14T22:31:00.002+08:00

a new post..
haha.. so fast the march holiday is over..
feel so sian..
accomplish NTH in this march holiday..
haha..
like so pointless..
hmm.. i wonder y am i so appealing..
to..
Mosquito..
sigh..
suffer so many bites from them..
even raining days shld be no mosquito..
but i still kana bitten..
haha.. my blood realli that swt? hmph.
=X

2008-03-11T22:26:00.004+08:00

counting down..
6more days to block test..
a test on who can stack the highest block -_-
haha..
sianz y all the topic r so dead..

i dun like study dead book ( content ) realli dun like..
but i rather that the book is dead
if it is alive, it will scare out of my wits

haha.. so bored..
STUDY STUDY STUDY
it is made out of 5 letters
hav to mug..
ppl started mugging so much..
realising me hav not realli started..(read thru one topic)
does that count? haha..
thurs night still got gathering..
=X
meaning i left fri n sun to study..
mus make full use of these two days sia..
if not realli mati..
8hrs of study each day.. ( I CANT DO IT)
ahhh... how to score..
( kick a ball into the goal post (YEAY I SCORED) )
=X
haha..
its like the 4.5round of a 2.4km race..
the most tiring part..
haha.. mus pull up socks ( literally pulling.. if nt the shoe will bite me *ouch* )
but is it possible?
running n pulling up socks..
haha.. =X

january, february zoom past..
60days gone..
*poof* disappear..
have to study more..
only lack the motivation n the PUSH..
(go to 7-11 push the door open) =X

i wanna enjoy life sia.. study seems so bored..
but its the job of a student..
to score well
life goes..
wake up.. study.. on the way sch study.. in sch study.. lecture study.. tutorial study.. break study.. eating study.. ( PE take ur book along n study ) .. on the way home study.. dinner study.. study.. slp.. in dream also study.. wake up.. cycle continue..
mentioned the word study 11 times..
hahax..
it will go on n on till a lvl finish..
Can't Wait for it to go..
n can't bear for it to come..
nvm.. go one step by the time..

need to study le..
cannot waste time..
GO! GO! GO! study!
1 2 3 4
2 2 3 4
3 2 3 4
4 2 3 4
study study all the way..
go study go study
study study all the way

students r u rdy?
yes sir
r u rdy? i cant hear u
yes sir..
carry on..

walking down the street with book in the hand
1 2 3 4
knocking onto the pillar and pretend nth have happen
2 2 3 4
with the book in the hand n specs on the nose
3 2 3 4
pulling up your socks with the other hand
4 2 3 4
continue to walk with book in the hand

study study study
thats the word..
so com'on lets study..

left right left..
follow the rythm and the beat
and you wont go wrong..

lets walk tgt studying with book in the hand..
YeaY

-end-

alright.. back to study..
chemistry..
organic chem..

sidenote..
organic mean healthy
organic chem not = healthy
it hurts the brain if taken..
(mind taxing)
stop taking in the knowledge..

jkjk.. all these r jus jokes..
signing off..

2008-03-04T22:12:00.002+08:00

lol..
on a range from A B C D
which is easiest to score?
its easiest to score C and hardest to get A
reason as follows
1) to write A, it consist of 3 strokes..
which take a longer time as compared to C
C on need one stroke..
which is easier?
of cause C lahz..
2) what about B n D ?
D is easier . Reason.
B and D consist of two strokes.
one is a straight line..
nxt .. for B there is two curve while D only have one curve..
thus D is easier

grouping all together..
from easiest to harder to get
C < D < B < A

haha..
(all this is jus crap.. pls dun take it too seriously)

off to study phy agn =X

2008-03-02T22:27:00.003+08:00

i feel so slack..
spent the whole of ytd n todae
reading manga and watching anime
lol.. knowing block test is near
i still so slack..
haha.. sad sia..
tmr still got test..
=X
want to study.. then pick up book..
put down.. lol..
jus not in a mood to study..
lol..
hav to work hard le..
=(
block test is soooooo near..
sigh.

off to study econs =X

2008-02-26T21:05:00.002+08:00

block test is coming..
blocking all the test
coming up with exams
prelims and 'a' lvl
haha..

counting from 1 to 22
its jus 22number..
possible way of grping them together is 22!
that is 1.124000728x10^21
is it small?
consider it with 40 or more..
40! = 8.159152832x10^47
40! is more than 10 times of 22!
its like y cant 22! be more cooperative?
problems arising here n there
there n here
class?
what is the defination?
a place to study in
or
a place to study with?
jus wan peace
cheese =)
take a photo..
smile
haha..

it may seem impossible but nothing is impossible?
impossible comes from possible..
its jus probability

hoping the nxt time when do things will hav better cooperation.

wah chimology even i dun understand what i typing..
nvm bahz

sianz.. tmr got pe.. still got chem spa..
haha..

2008-02-19T22:53:00.003+08:00

tests after tests
tutorial after tutorial
lecture after lecture
its like a nvr ending chain..
soon will be block test, prelim 1 then 2 then a lvl
woohoo... then holiday
haha..
times flies..
CNY passed like nth..
work start to roll in agn..
so bored..
bored of doing work.. ( n slacking )
=)
haha..

o well..
thats jc
haha..

strive towards excellence ..
haha =)

2008-02-03T00:07:00.000+08:00

watched a tv serial
wonder y is it always lidat..
after a guy tell a girl the 3 word..
friends r nt friends
end up only the guy got hurt most

ppl always say time will recover..
will it?
time also let u calm down
doesnt make u forget
weird doesnt it

time realli flies.. 1mnth have past
reaching CNY le..
( i wan go with friends to friends house visit..
but likely impossible..
no one invite me)
lol..

got one time in sec days
after exam.. ask ppl wan go play pool..
they say no.. end up playing with other ppl
saying that i ask later..
cox that guy organising dun wanna me to go
i still feel furious..
i nvr invite u.. u got go..
u nvr invite me.. ask all ppl dun tell me
its like WTH
haha forget it.. let forgone be forgo..

if ppl dun wan me go.. just tell me mahz..
i will disappear de..
dunnid hide from me..

i dunno why.. i trust all ppl ard me..
till they broken my trust..
LOL..
feel myself very naive..
ppl say what i believe..
haha..

so blur de me..

nvm thats me.. =)
ppl always say kai xin jiu hao..
haha..
i am scare of a lot of things
i scare ppl detest me..
i scare this scare that..
i dun like being lonely..
=X

2008-01-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

jus lazing ard..
chem test over le.. YEAY
haha =)

lol sec school also cant wait for pe
come jc different thing
like dun wan go pe..
keep running n running
haha.. ( didnt c i improve )
cant wait for games ( after napfa =X ) still long

after running its like stepping on lemon..
leg will suan ( tire )
LOL copy from jh =X

sometimes feel so neglected
lol.. i cant stand lonely-ness
weird hor.. been the only child
and cant stand lonely-ness
shld b used to it..

i am lonely, mr lonely ~~
lol.. feel so sianz n crappy
got a feeling of emptiness nowadays
like got something missing
haha.. dunno what thing..

lol feel as if i toking to myself =x
lalala~
dun care so much bahz
aniway also no one will go read
haha.. =X

q " p
( . , )(')
( ")( ")

2008-01-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

lol from i observe

math is
either u do correctly or uncorrectly
chem is
either u memorise correctly or wrongly
phy is
either u know or dunno
econs is
u know also wrong u dunno also wrong
gp is
either u lucky or sway

(all this is just for fun, dun take it seriously =P )

2008-01-26T20:22:00.000+08:00

this week gonna be a stress week =X
so many tests..

so impressed of zhss
haha.. did so well
congrats juniors

mon gonna be a long day agn..
bored.. reach home so late..
cannot do much then need slp le

time realli fly
so fast going to be new year agn..
haha..

2008-01-20T22:45:00.000+08:00

lol.. started to watch
konjiki no gash bell agn
hmm ever since banning of dl-ing of anime
i very long nvr watch anime le..
haha..

tmr school agn..
jus when i tot timetable is being shorten
it lengthen agn
haha..
=X

2008-01-19T20:39:00.001+08:00

yeay i changed my blogskin
haha..

recently been quite upset by myself
no idea why..
feel so lousy..
ppl ask me school work n i say wrong things
sigh..
sad sia..

mood : down ~~

last wk was so unhappy with myself cause of this
=X

sometimes i feel i nt part of the class.. nt say they treat me badly or what..
its like u feel so lousy.. cannot be compared with the rest
does working hard help?
now my situation is like last in the class.. feel so depressed
dun hav the motivation to strive.. sigh

hope that tmr will be a better day =)
YES i mus be positive ! go go go..
push on.. i can do it..

2007-11-30T23:07:00.000+08:00

17th to 21th nov went on a school trip to pahang

17th nov
went to the train station then take a long train ride to pahang
from 6pm all the way to 3.30am lidat
take a short walk to centerpoint hotel,

18th nov
slept at 4.30am, wake up at 6am
report at 8am
got a few people late, thus all being punished
did more than 100 jumping jack, without the jumping and resting of hand
haha.. dunno how to describe
then have breakfast, after which have a discussion on the cip that we are going to do later on
after lunch, we all proceed to orang asli settlement
played with the kids over there, talk to the elderly and learn more about their lifestyle
after that ard 4pm we all went back hotel
have dinner then lights out

19th nov
report at 8am still
got ppl late, then we did 100 crunches..
haha
after breakfast went over
take a 4wd to the rainforest..
bumby ride,
reach there, we learnt about the juggle survival skills
medicinal plants, what fruits can be eaten, how to cook
then got ppl kana leech bite..
haha everyone more excited bout the leech
hav to cook rice, using the method taught
the rice we cooked supposed to be the rice we eat,
however no one succeed
so we eat the food that they provide
haha.. =)
after which we learn how to climb rock
which is VERI IMPT for later on
next up, we started trekking..
the way up is ez..
however the way down doesnt proved to be so..
it is ard 5pm and we are waiting for the previous team to clear
till ard 7pm then we slowly go down..
it was raining heavily.. and pitch dark
torch light was used handphone torch and so on..
lack of torch light..
the way down was highly dangerous
one slip = byebye
and was cold of the rain and we all drenched
its jus a mere distance of 500m up and 500m down
we trek from 2pm to 4am
long and tiring..
still rmb one part haha while waiting
it was so dark, then cant even c ur hand even if placed in front of u
then one say that can u c my teeth
haha
its so dark, cant even c a single thing
open eye n close eye got no difference.
then got one part.. its like u hav to cling onto rope and slowly walk/ slide down
quite fun actually..
i reach btm ard 3am
then go bathe..
come out kana leech bite on toe
haha slpt ard 5.30am
wake up at 9am

20nov
went water rafting..
haha the raft not enough air.. cant move fast
paddle so hard still no difference
but the wave part was fun
haha
then night go back hotel eat steamboat
aft that campfire without the fire
end of which went back home via train
reach singapore ard 11am 21nov

overall the trip was damn nice and unexpected..
no one expected the trekking..
suppose to reach bottom ard 6.30pm
ending up reaching at 4am
lucky no one was injured
this trip was veri enjoyable
=)

2007-11-08T01:32:00.001+08:00

avoidance?

sometimes if things cannot be handled,the natural way is to avoid
but avoid doesnt solve anything
its like a dilema when choosing,
choosing to meet with problems bravely or just want to avoid
people may think avoid is a form of coward,
people also have their own difficulties and question
everyone has their own feelings
ppl normally want to run far to relax their feelings
another alternatively is to run up..

2007-11-08T01:26:00.000+08:00

jus here lazing around..
feel that it pointless for everything i do..
sigh.
i nvr get to do things right
who am i??
i am just a small little passer-by..
where nobody took notice of..
insignificant..
with me or without me, its still the same?
i dunno, but how i wish
ppl sometimes do take notice of me.
my emotions are clear, when i am happy, i m
when i am sad, i m
but who cares,
who cares!

2007-11-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

kids let me tell u
dota is a veri bad bad and evil game
i noe i will be flare for this

reason y i say so
1) It can be addictive
2) Saw people fight over dota
3) Saw people letting off their emotion
4) Saw people losing friendship
5) Saw people losing control

i know most of the people who play knew,
saw friends becoming foes
saw people betraying each other

i dunno why, its like PROOF
i dunno how to say..

2007-09-04T11:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes life can be so boring
that u wanna cry
sometimes life can be so irrating
till u wanna cry
sometimes life can be so busy
till u wanna breakdown
sometimes life can be so frustrating
till u wanna let go
life is nvr what u get
there isnt a perfect day in life
sigh..
thats life
day pass n go like bullet train
i jus a small character who does not affect any1
ppl jus let it pass
what i want was a simple thx
maybe i wan ppl to notice me a little..
haiis

2007-09-01T00:11:00.001+08:00

lalala..
think i am back to blogging...
hmm brief runthrough

JANUARY
The start of PAE, everything was great
the OGL the orientation
haha... like the disco
still rmb there trying breakdance with dacai -_-
then school was fine and fun
timetable was SHORT!!
haha
also got 2 project to do
1) CHEM
2) ECONS

FEB
9Feb release o lvl..
10 Feb I@fun
9 feb after get back result then go make SUSHI
haha
got a night of sushi to eat
full full
10 feb
see ppl come buy food..
haha.. quite fun

March
start of JAE
start to know new friends
school still fine

April
The attack of PW starts
MuaHaHa and
chi module

MAY
A division competition
haha..

June
went on taiwan immersion trip
taiwan FUN
haha

July
suddenly feel no time do hmwk
no time do revision
cannot cope
come back so late
zzz

AUG
attack of the WR
haha..
when W come fight with R
both get injure
it arise RW
i wan REWIND TIME!!
..
the beginning of STAR
sit talk and relax
n my bdae
haha..
=)

SEPT
only the first day of sept
cant expect me predict the future

this is a brief summary
mus work hard le..
work work work
we are the working grp
students are worker
and our job is to study
when during this stage is suppose to enjoy
there goes our youth
burden by work
TSK TSK
MUS STRIVE
lalala
so lets go...
strive for the best!
haha..

hereby wishing all teachers in singapore happy teachers day
also
to all taking
PSLE
O lvlA lvl
PROMOS
good luck

c i so gd ..
haha..
mus thx me wor.

i m so so so so lame
haha..

dunno when will be blogging agn

2007-01-14T21:49:00.000+08:00

lol .... too long nvr blog le...
bloggin that sumthing happen last mnth in a short summary
hmm...

6dec
morning wake up early early
then go take coach to genting...
long journey sia... reach there alr like 2++
then go check in hotel...
come out walk a bit...
at night catch a movie...
reach back hotel at ard 1 am??
haha still got play pool there...

7dec
catch a cold... (sigh)
take a taxi down to KL
went shopping
didnt realli buy much
then went back genting at evening
eat dinner then walk a bit...

8dec
wake up...
go play the theme park...
haha roller coaster was FUN
then at night play archade , pool till ard 1am ++
then return back to hotel

9 dec
wake up...
eat... then go wark ard... last day le
then afternoon take coach back sg..
is 3.30pm de then w8 till 4.30pm the coach then come
k lor... then reach sg at 10pm!!!!
check in to sg... all the procedure till 12.30am lidat
sianz... then reach home watch tv a while
then slp

10dec
WORK... 1st day of work at pan pacific hotel
hmm.......
meet up with cousin + his friend at city hall mrt
then walk there
haha...
first day... ask us cut ribbon...
short one 900++
long one 1000++
from 2pm ++ cut till 8pm ++
then do finish go help out with others things
end up going hm at 9.30pm
haha...
the food there was nice?

11dec
2nd day of work...
nth much bahz
hmm 2nd day is do the stollen i guess...
o ya... the bziest day
haha....
packed ard 1000+ of the stollen
haha

12dec
the nutty pie...
haha...
packaging only
also package till quite late

13dec
manfred n lineker come
haha...
is do the packing of the mince pie...
hav to open the plastic n straigthen it
jus lidat... after on then do the placing of pie

14dec
still nutty pie?
aiya nt that sure
haha... then at night is packing of hamper le
wah till 9pm+ i guess
then mrt met deng lao shi... haha

15dec
eunice come work haha....
then also packing of hamper + mince pie
haha... then she there appoint to cut paper

16dec
jamie come work (sub for eunice)
also packing of hamper + (small nutty pie)
till 5 pm ++ all work finish le...
can go home le...
haiis so fast... then no more work le
work 6 days nia

17dec
follow eunice back to the hotel to collect her pay
then walk ard suntec
haha

18dec
recieve notice mus return nametag -___-

19dec-22dec
stay home

23dec
go n play bball with james n co

24dec n 25dec
(4get le)

26dec
went to ijc first time
to attend the subj combi talk
then at night hav a 'family meeting'
on which course to choose -__-

27dec
went k box with gabriel haozi n junkai
sing from 2pm to 7pm haha
then gabriel no sound le
hmm fun ...

28dec
went to watch curse of the golden flower
with tzehin, kendrick, jerryl
then aft that meet up with zainul
go safra play pool n bowling
haha....

29dec
go to POSB bank apply ATM card
haha...
then go northpt walk ard

30dec
went out to buy lights
(parent wedding anniversary)
then go eat
the funniest part
from 6pm want go eat...
drive to ard 5 hotels lidat
wanna eat buffet dinner de...
then my mum say dun wan...
keep driving ard...
then go to 1 hotel... actually is wan eat de
then jus nice... the resturant there booked for wedding dinner
then SIANZ!
haha... then say go eat roti prata....
aft which drive halfway.... then my dad tio 4d
my mum say ok le... can go jack place eat
haha...
reach jack place at 8pm
then full hse
wait till 8.30++ pm then got seat
eat eat eat till 9.40pm++ lidat
go home....
haha....

31dec
nth much

1JAN
me grandma bdae...
go out hav dinner
then celebrate

2JAN
at home

3Jan - 5 jan
orientation start...
hmm got into 0713A
taking h2 comp, math , chem
h1 econs
haha...
then OG tribe is chaos

more details nxt time then add bahz
haha...

2006-12-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

hmm... got a lot to say...
but some i realli rather keep it inside
haiis...
after so much assurance... then came BANG
WTF lahz...
realli cannot take it... =(
a tmr is nt a day to look forward
ya ya i m pessismitic but what can i do?
even if i wan to change my pt of view...
but the fact is there proving that it is nt forward looking...
SIANZ lahz...
this problem alr exist during march
its like Y m i such an idiot
N
idiot IS spelt as I-D-I-O-T
n thats me...
Y i SO stupid ...
the 3 words REALLI KILL!!
n sum more during O lvl
WTF realli lor
realli hav to ask lahz...
xi huan yi ge ren you cuo ma?
i realli cant take it ...
this is what i think during o lvl :
1) the sum1 who is scare of me will start to avoid me lahz
2) then if that the case... of coz i will be hurt lahz
3) rather than being avoided , i will personally avoid the person
4) coz i realli dun wan ppl to be scare of me o whatever...
5) either way... I m feeling the worse lor...
coz both way is nt a way...
then it came lahz... the assurance of no avoidance or anithing
but what the use... the scar will still be there in both person
yea yea what i say is all crap to you...
but what can i do or say?
sumtime realli felt so neglected
Y can the 3 words being blurted out...
if nt all these wont happen
=(
it is realli a big "bang" ...
one more thing to say...
TIME WONT EVER HEAL...
the scar n the impression will always be there
its nt so easy to 4get...
but it is so easy to rmb
that all i can say bahz

life realli sux loads...

2006-12-05T17:16:00.000+08:00

realli dunno what to blog abt =X
...
finding sth realli funni
y ppl ask me whose my gf
when i didnt hav 1 ?
-____-
anyway i starting work on 11dec
hmm...
actually is earlier de lor... but cannot
haiis......
weekend hav to work too i think...
3 more week to end of holiday le...
thurs going m'sia will be back on sun
ard 9.30PM arrive at sg
reach home 11??
prepare everything then slp 2am lidat?
later still hav to work
wow... what a time slot
haha...
now its raining... so sianz...
raining still so warm...
zZzzz dunno what crap i toking...
realli nth to blog abt =X
~sianz

2006-11-27T09:40:00.000+08:00

love hurt =(

2006-11-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

sianz lahz
always hoping that tmr is a better day
but which turn out to be no
i realli dunno what to say bahz...
=X
haiis...
dun dare to look forward le..
T.T

2006-11-16T20:18:00.001+08:00

back to blogging?
tmr last day of paper
shld feel relax...
haiis me on the contradictory
veri de afraid
i realli dunno y
hmm... last paper
hist...
realli dunno what to say
jus noe i am veri scare (nt for the paper)
all the paper i think i study less than 3hr
12pts... can i get it??
this yr is like so many things hav happen
4 yrs hav pass in sec sch
all down to o lvl
n o lvl is down to the last paper
realli in a loss of words bahz
.................
hmm... i realli prefer sunset to sunrise?
coz sunset symbolise the start of evening n night
all dark... jus like my life
isnt there sumthing i can look forward positively
i always hope tmr is a better day...
but is it?
haiis...
ok i admit i am a crybaby back in my pri sch days
but i keep telling myself nt to cry agn in sec sch
sumtimes jus cant hold back the tears
life is so stressful
back in pri sch...me is like always being picked on
asking me do this n that
neglecting me
me always a loner?
who can i share my thoughts with?
i realli dunno
.........
tmr a.k.a last day of sch
closing of a chapt...
the start of a new chapt...
i realli dunno shld i look forward to this new chapt?
i realli afraid disappointment after one disappointment
i dunno can i take it o not...
.........
confidence can i hav u back to me?
i wan to look positively to life
but dun hav the courage to?
.......
agn... hoping tmr is a better day =)

2006-11-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

2006-10-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

will a better tmr ever come?
i realli thinking it is pointless looking forward to each day...
haiis

2006-10-22T14:51:00.000+08:00

hmm... been a long time since i update...
i realli dunno what to say bahz
so many things hav happen
i realli dunno how to comment...
i dunno am i regreting it o what
realli afraid of so many things...
feeling that i am like a coward or what le...
having a realli mixed feeling
which i cannot do anithing bout it ...
felt so helpless
ytd is the last day of sch
bidding farwell to friends and teachers
there r times of happi and unhappiness
the joy and the tears
4 years past so fast
still rmb the first day i step into sch
so innocent and carefree
i sometime realli hope time can reverse bahz ...jk
make some realli wonderful frewnz
still rmb there are arguements though
haha
sec1 life is so carefree and nth to worry
still rmb aft eoy exam
everyday go play bowling...
so fun and wonderful
sec2 stress came harping...
scary...
however still as carefree as b4...
then end of year hav to part
all go different class
our proudest achievement then
champion class for sport day
yea!!!
things start to change when reach sec 3
i realise how bad and dull life can be
for the first few mnths life
competition n competition
missing lesson after lesson
it was realli fun time to be in media club
having known a lot of things...
first day of sec3 alr can make some frewnz le...
realli i enjoy the days
the camp and everything bahz
sometime jus wish time can froze there
but sadly
happiness dun last
o well...
nvm
then sec4
last yr in sch...
4 yrs hav pass by so fast n quick
stupid decision made one after another
i nt sure am i regreting it
day aft day
alwayz wishing the day after is a better tmr
but a happy tmr nvr came
=(
ytd last day of sch
i realli hav a lot to say
but dunno how to phrase it bahz
a closing of a chapter and the opening of another
i realli cant part with those frewnz i met
i hav been bullied since YOUNG!!!
realli... i dunno y always i am the one
haha
but i realli enjoy the day bahz
some teachers r realli great encouraging ppl
i salute u
haha

i realli dunno how to say this bahz
to all i jus wanna say
a big thank you
thank you for being there to hear my sorrows
thank you for encouraging me
thank you for the advises
thank you for the happy memories
thank you for the kindness your hav shown
thank you for the care
thank you for tolerating me
thank you for a lot a lot of things (cant think of those)
realli i jus wanna say thank you to all
this 4 yr in sch i realli learnt a lot from all

THANK YOU!!!

2006-09-21T21:31:00.000+08:00

sianz lahz
something sometime is better to be kept in the dark
i realise that some things r better left to be not known
some things will upset u even more...
i realli dun understand y some ppl is lidat
i noe i sux,
your dunnid to show it on the face ritez
make ppl upset n unhappy...
i noe i noe...
come till this pt in life
i nvr feel such a failure
y ppl lie realli... Y!
felt so betrayed
i noe where i stand in the class
i noe myself best
its seem like other class ppl noe me better
zzz
i realli dunno
dunno!!!
end it all
DUNNO!!!

jus wish tomorrow will be a better tmr

2006-09-16T23:54:00.000+08:00

time doesnt heal everything i guess
once ppl is injured theres always a scar left
that cant be erased...
been 1 yr le...
still afraid of sth... =(

2006-09-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

haiis...
oil use up liaoz...
realli dunno how to study...
prelims is like 3 more days?
n i dun realli not into studying
Zzz
n i noe all my practical n SS i screwed up
SS hav such a careless mistake...
n i realli cannot believe it...
its like unforgivable lahz
same goes to the practical...
WHAT AM I DOING?
all having careless mistake?
too tensed up during exam???
realli hopeless sia...
tmr by hook or by crook mus realli start liao
or else is too late...
however... not in a studying mood...
jus want to stare blankly...
n let time pass...
c hows tmr goes bahz
*cross finger*

2006-09-06T23:34:00.000+08:00

jus hope that tmr will be better
looking forward to each day
but...
yi ci yi ci de shi wang

2006-09-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

one word to end it all
"Haiis"

2006-09-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

todae was fun ...
went pool aftering the lunch
but kinda of ex =(
$$
haha...
worst defeat ever...
1st turn i lose liaoz
happen like this
starting hit... a solid went it...
next still my turn mahz
so hit agn...
so unexpectedly n dunno y...
the black went in...
omg...
so embarrassing sia...
but kinda of nice
playing with pri sch friends
miss the pass days ...

2006-08-27T20:28:00.000+08:00

yea my bdae todae...
haha
in order who wish me happy bdae

1) fiona teo ( haha same day bdae)
2) elaine
3) gabriel
4) melissia
5) si hao
6) eunice
7) my mum
8) my dad
9) hong xun

no more liaoz T.T

waiting for 1 person to say...
but dun hav...
last yr also like that..
but different person...
haha

anyway thx for friday...

16 sui de di yi tian zhe yang guo qu le...
you dian she bu de...
dan shi ren sheng jiu shi zhe yang
xi wang ming tian hui geng hao...
wei zhi ji jia you bahz...